||[Feb. 28th, 2007|11:08 am]
So, today was grad pics. And I missed them because I have three appointments today!!!!!! Doctor, eye doctor, and dentist. not only that, but today totally sucks! Here's why.
For one, it's the anniversery of my mother's death. So, it's one of the hardest times of the year for me. I miss her so much! Can you believe that out of all the friends I have, only one person even remembered it was today?!? Krista. she was the only one of my so called "best friends" that remembered what today was. But that's okay. You know why? Because it just goes to show you how much you mean to your friends. And some of my friends come complaining to me because they had to clean their room, or they didn't get their way when fighting with their parents. Or they even talk back to their parents, and wonder why they got punished. Then they say "oh I hate this world so much cause I didn't get my way!" Blah blah blah! I wanna see you complain when you got real problems! My friends don't know me. We just hang out because it entertains us. Hell, they probably don't even know what my favorite color is (green). You'd think that your best friends would be there to comfort you on a day like this. But my friends don't even remember. And I thank you Krista. For being there for me. You're amazing ^_^
And for a "certain someone" that I was having problems with earlier.......just like I predicted, she went back to doing the same thing over again. But, I can't change a person. Nor do I want to. But, it really is pissing me off. To the point where sometimes I just wanna slap her. But, oh well. No offense towards the person. You'll always be you. And nothing can change that. But you might just wanna get that stick out your ass every once in a while (no offense) but you should, no offense.
You know what's funny. You can say something mean, and then say "no offense" afterwards and suddenly everything is alright. Well, that's in most cases.
Right now, I just wanna see my Mom. It's officially been two years since her death. In a way I'm happy that she is in a better place. But....I can't help the feeling that I want her here with me. She really was the only person I ever truly, with all my heart, trusted (besides rob my lil bro of course) I just wish that she would come back. And she wouldn't have breast cancer. I just wish everything could turn back to normal. I wish I could redo the whole thing. I wish she didn't have to suffer. I wish she could hold me, and tell me everything is alright. But no matter how much I prayed for her to get better, no matter how much I pleaded to God to help her get better. No matter how much I wished. It never worked. That's when I realized............that some wishes don't come true.